All ended.... Part II

Yesterday morning got a sms from her again. Guess wad she said? She broke off with her bf and say i will always be her special friend.

Scary isn't it. A 8mths relationship can end just like that. I asked her if she was sure of ending the relationship because of what happen the other day. She gave 2 reasons. One is the bf dun believe her, the other the bf hurt me.

I asked her if she will be alright. She said she will survive, after all she did when she and I didn't work out the other time. But I was thinking, my relationship with her was never offical, never clear. How come she can just compare it with her 8mths relationship.

I completely dunno wad she is thinking seriously. Her special friend she say i will continue to be? How can a friendship with a special friend be more important than a relationship with a bf?

All ended....

Well, so stupid of me to think that I have some hope in getting together with her again. I always tell people that "Nah I have gotten over her", but in actual fact she still has a place in my heart. Friends who know me know that I not someone who can forget someone whom I like so easily one.

Some time ago last year, she msned or smsed me that she met someone in life. I knew nuts about what she meant. Damn, I was so stupid. She met someone at her cousin's wedding. Someone in life meant a boyfriend. Only y.day I knew, and she has been with him for 8 months already.

This show what a failure I am. Not only that I can't win her heart, I didn't even realise she had someone for so long. Although I got to admit I didn't really see a future in us, I just blindly held on to the tiny winy little hopes that pop up once in a while. I think those reading my post will be laughing like hell. How come Jason is so naive? So stupid?

The funniest thing is that if she didn't tell me herself yesterday, I wouldn't have known at all. If this continues like that, she might even get married and I still dunno that she was attached all along. She might just tell me one day, "Jason, sorry I'm married", like y.day she told me, "Jason, I have a bf".

She told me she like me in a friend way, no longer the romantic way. Had to blame nobody but myself that things gone this way. SOmemore for so long liao. All the time it was only my one sided wishful thinking. How stupid can i get?

Move on, I told myself. f*** if only it's so easy.

Love sucx

Love just sucx big time I feel. Somehow breakups are so common these days.

1. One of my close friend just broke off with his gf just now. They were together for 7 years I think.
2. One of my secondary school friend was suppose to ROM next week. But last min have to cancel everything. Wife-to-be ran off with some other guy. What a BITCH!
3. Another of my close friend r/s with gf seems to be rocky. Initally seems to be a perfect couple.
4. Saw on TV, a sec 3 boy killed himself because gf left him. So stupid!

All these just make me feel that love is so weak. Go steady for years still will break. Married for years still can divorced. What's the point then. Love give more pain than joy?

Back for a week liao...

Time flies, I am back from Melbourne for a week liao. Just went to SIA Cargo Complex to collect the 6 boxes that I had shipped back from Melbourne. Quite troublesome. Got to go to this office, that office, drive here, drive there, change pass and stuff. But paying 250 dollars for 65-70kg of excess baggage, consider not bad liao. So troublesome a bit is ok.

Recently, you would have read or saw the news about NKF's CEO and board drawing too much pay and brainlessly spending money at the company's expense. What the hell is this man? We donate money to those people who need to have their kidney treated, not for people to install gold plated taps and fly first class for family vacation. This is BULL SHIT!!! And how can the ministers not know anything about it? Don't tell me they never visit the NKF's CEO office before? And how come nobody blow the whistle until now? Good job to the SPH journalist for revealing the truth to the public. If not, we will never know that the hard earned money that we donated has actually been going to the wrong pockets !!!!!

Okay, enough of this NKF thing. Now about this girl of mine. I'm suppose to forget all about her. But just now I saw her online on msn, and found out she is at her friend's place. I kinda have an uneasy feeling. The friend is a guy and she been there for a few hours liao. Somemore so late liao. As the matter of fact, she still there at this moment of time. Haizz. I'm just confused whether I really still have feelings for her or not. And likewise does she have any feelings for me at all? I really dunno. She is treating me quite nicely now, but is it only to me, all to other guys also? Dunno. Mebbie, hmmm. nevermind...

Initial D

Just watch Initial D the movie the other day. A very nice movie and They didn't change the story too much from the original Japanese anime. However Jay's acting wasn't too natural, mebbie becoz this is the 1st time he starred as the lead actor. However, he still has the cool cool jay chou attitude which is nice to watch nevertheless.

The song that u are listening to now is one of the theme songs sang by Jay Chou himself, called Yi Ru Xiang Bei. Very nice. Hope you like it too.

Home sweet home

Hurry, finally I'm back in Singapore again. Looking fwd to do some catching with my family and friends. The feeling is great.

Although the weather is very hot when compared with Melbourne, but nothing beats being with my family and friends.

One more important thing is that I can go get the food that I have been missing for 4 months. On the other hand, I don't have to cook any more, HURRAY !!!!

Another happy thing is that I passed all my exams and out of the 4 subjects, 3 got distinctions. Really happy that I was able to finish up so nicely. =)

Think I will relax for a while then start to find jobs in august.

Stupid Jetta Express

This morning the people from Jetta Express were supposed to come and pick up my boxes that I wanted to ship back home. But nobody came, so I ringed up their office. The guy who answered the phone said that they didn't receive the email from me. Well, I submitted the request through the website and the site shown me a "request sent" confirmation page. Now they say they didn't receive the email. How am I suppose to know they are suppose to receive an email. Stupid guy.

Anyway, I had no choice but to make a booking for tomorrow instead and the guy promised me the earliest time slot. Lucky, I wasn't going home today. If not, I dunno how am I going to do with my boxes. I purposely stayed up late last night to finish up with all the packing. Damn, now the boxes are still lying in my apartment.

Well, can't wait for tomorrow man. Home sweet home soon =)

So tired and boring....

After packing for a few days, I finally packed finished all the stuff that im going to ship back. You know what. I shipping a total of 6 boxes with a total weight of 71 kgs !!! I wonder if I should just throw away somethings or what...

Anyway very tired. Tml the shipping people coming over to pick up the boxes. Hope they come early so that I can get rid of the boxes earlier. K lah, tired and dowan blog liao.

Winter cleaning....

I guess you all should know what is spring cleaning right. Have you heard of winter cleaning before? That's what I'm doing now. Its winter here in melbourne and I'm cleaning and packing my stuff. Just threw away lots of things like sauces, useless bottles, and things that are lying around the kitchen and in the fridge. Think I will start packing my clothes into the luggage bag now after I finish with this blog. Hmmm... Will it be too early? I still have 4-5 days more. Hmm..

Anyway, yesterday night I met up with my poly friend who is studying in UNSW. He came over with a couple of friends for a holiday. We went to a chocolate cafe call Koko Black to drink hot chocolate. It taste a bit like thick milo though, haha. But on the whole still not bad. After that, they went over to my place to use the internet to check emails and stuff.

Today, I went to the city to get a replacement bulb for my ceiling lamp. The stupid lamp purposely choose this time when I am about to move out to blow out. I end up buying a bottle of soft drink and some pork ribs too. Guess what? I had bak ku teh for dinner just now. Yummuy yum yum heehee.

I guess tomorrow I will stay at home and rot. =p